How is God disturbing you?
Do I dare share?
I’m a 9 to 5 kind of gal. What I mean is I’m in bed by 9:00pm and my internal alarm wakes me up by 5:00am.
Not so since I arrived at the Adam’s Mark hotel. Now I’m in bed by 12:00am and I wake up in the middle of the night unable to sleep. My sleep, my comfort zone, is completely disturbed.
The first night I woke up in the middle of the night unable to go back to sleep. I tossed this way and that, this way and that, this way and that. You’d think I was sleeping on a boat or something. My mind began to reflect on something that I was asked to do in the area of prayer . . . and as I reflected I began to think of God and His sanctuary on earth. My heart felt like it was being wrung like a dish rag. Though my thoughts were were a bit jumbled, my mind turned to God’s holiness. During one of those – this way and that, this way and that, – my hand went to my cheek – it was wet with tears. What was happening?
Friday night, in bed at 12:00am – awake and unable to sleep at 4:30am. I decided to check out the prayer room. As I made my way around the stations of the cross – my thoughts were – “I’ll do this quickly and then hopefully I’ll be tired enough to sleep the rest of the night”. My heart nearly stood still at one of the stations – a reflection on Mary pouring the perfume on Jesus’ feet. Was I willing to pour out my devotion to God regardless of what other’s thought? Regardless of religious leader’s criticism’s? At another station my heart just overflowed and the tears came as I realized that God loved bumbling, quiet, introverted me. My quick way around the stations of the cross turned into a journey to the heart of God.
How is God disturbing you? What is impacting you?